Learning how to live, while trying not to die

A story about my stage 4 colon cancer journey,

growing to trust my inner voice, and how cancer became the best worst thing that ever happened to me

Oct 1, 20191 min read

The year anniversary of my first chemo

Hard to believe I had my first chemo treatment one year ago today—back when I had lots of hair, clear skin, no real sense of what this...

Jul 31, 20192 min read

Shouldn't I feel happier?

The number of “how are you doing” texts I’ve gotten in the past few days suggests I’m overdue for an update. I don’t love updating when...

Jun 20, 20193 min read

An update I've been dragging my feet to share

I’ll be honest, I’ve been dragging my feet on this update. Dreading it, even. Maybe because I’m still trying to process what they told me...

Feb 25, 20191 min read

My first chemo delay

Showed up for what was supposed to be my last chemo before surgery—and my platelets were too low for treatment. They will check me again...

Dec 13, 20181 min read

“Your body wants so desperately to be healthy.”

That's what my lovely sister-in-law Lisa said, and it struck a chord: isn't that what bounce is all about? But I'll be honest. I'm scared...

Nov 3, 20181 min read

Trying (and trying and trying) to eat

One of the worst parts of chemo has been loss of appetite. It's super stressful to know that maintaining my weight is something I need to...

Oct 11, 20181 min read

A rash of good

"A rash is good, because it means the medicine is working." It's what I told the twins when they worried about me looking different if I...

Oct 7, 20181 min read

The side effects are setting in

Having gotten to the afternoon of Day 7 without experiencing any serious side effects, I thought I might be in the clear. LOL, not so...